The truth of real words

Sometimes in life we really don't know who or what to believe when it all gets mixed together. Sometimes, even though we shouldn't, we even can forget right from wrong. What's real doesn't seem to be as clear as more and more things pushed into society today are becoming more and more fake. I'm sick of the lies and the fakeness. I want the truth of real words. I want the promises that will be kept. I want to stay true to my word also. I'm still trying to figure out what is and isn't real, but at least I know that God is real and this planet we live on are real. I know that it is true that he created it, no matter what some people believe. I know there is always a reason for everything that happens. I've realized this past month that I shouldn't spend my life searching for the answers that I don't know are true, rather, enjoy every minute of it because I won't get those minutes back. Randomness is okay, because we do only live once and I had no idea how much I was missing out on. Now I see what I'm missing, and I now see that we need to relax and enjoy the ride, relax and enjoy the truth of real words...the real words God has given me, made me, and showed me what I am really living for.

God puts people in our lives for a reason. It doesn't matter who they are or how they live, once he puts them in for a reason, they are stuck there. Thanks God for letting people be stuck with me, what would I do without them? I know can see your purpose in my life.

1st poem, sure to be many more

I don't know what to think anymore,
don't know what to say,
don't know what I'm going for,
don't know what's the right way.

All I don't know has brought up many mistakes,
these things I don't want,
just make me want them more.

We jumped off a cliff,
We fell, I crashed,
but you didn't help me up and no one saw me there,
waiting to be helped up,
just waiting in fear.

I've gone without trusting
working hard for my goals
without any of your help.

Now your here and I've fallen in your trap,
I don't know if I should forgive,trust, or just give up.
If anything is worth it,
then I want to know
But I don't know at all.

So I keep on fighting,
all with myself
waiting for something,
that I don't know about.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

Is anyone even reading this???


Please comment. =D

-natalie

What more can I say?

Sometimes I know I have something that I want to say, but just can't put it into words. It's not that I forgot it, or even don't want to say it, it's just that...well, what more can I say? Even though I can't always say the right thing at the right time, God always can. It amazes me that when I thought God wasn't speaking to me because I didn't hear him when I prayed, he had just started speaking to me in a new way...through people. Sometimes I can't believe the things people say. They are truely messages from God. So what more can I say? Well I can say that sometimes we do have to stop and listen to hear what God really wants to tell us through other people.

Love Always,
Natalie Joy

P.S.-Tomorrow is Valentines Day, don't forget to tell everyone that you pass by that you love them and that God loves them!!!

that feeling...

You know that feeling when nothing seems to be going right, but then if you just pray it seems like it all goes away? I've felt that. :)

Forgiveness

I don't know why it has been so hard on me lately, but forgiving people hasn't been easy for me. A part of me wants to let go and give it all to God, but another part of me still has hope, that after I forgive someone maybe a thousand times or so, everything can be okay. And go back to how it was. But life isn't working that way. Forgiveness is something i've just given up and trown away. At one point it seems like I am ready to forgive, and I tell myself that, but after a while...watching it happen again and again, I just can't forgive. There is this hate inside of me that I can't get rid of, I just give it to God, but some of it is still there. I'm praying for this to leave, because I know that Forgiveness is important, so I am going to try to forgive right now.

<3 Always,
Natalie

Plans

So I wake up earlier than I plan to whenever I plan to sleep in and I sleep in whenever I plan to get up early. How does this work? I don't know but all I can say is if we plan for things in life, they may not follow our plan but they will always follow God's plans for us. Sometimes our plans don't match His, but I think his will turn out better anyway. Sometimes things don't go according to plans, but maybe his does that just so his plans will happen. However it works, my plans are in God's hands even if that means waking up at 7:30 on a Saturday morning.
<3 <3 Natalie

Emails and Expectations

Don't you know that emails are just the modern form of getting mail? It comes and goes even faster but even though there isn't an envelope to open, still if you see that "you've got mail" or "Inbox(2)" you get a smile on your face knowing that you just got a message from someone. I love the feeling of checking my email and going through reading what people have said to me.

But still isn't it sad when you go expecting a message and there aren't any? I hate that feeling. That's why I probably do this, but there is another reason. I get emails from advertisements just so I can have something to open every morning. The other reason I do this is just for fun. But my point is it that sometimes when we go into things expecting whatever it might be. From an email message to breakfast from mom that morning, we can't always get what we expect. In the end, the world can't meet our expectations. But we can meet God's. His are simple unlike ours and I so enjoy meeting his each day. Hope you can live today going for God's expectations and living for him.

Love Always,
Natalie Joy <3