Greater Love

God's love is so great and so powerful he can make it sun one minute then the next just let hail the size of marbles come down. isn't that amazing?? Wow I love God and I love how he solves every puzzle no matter how many pieces it has. Just like how he fixes us no matter how many pieces our hearts are broken. I feel very taken care of now. God makes everything okay. He puts us through hard times just to show us how strong we are. And I know how strong I am now, and I'm getting stronger every day. Anyway I know now that I've always got God to lean on, and I always should lean on him. Trust him. And see his greater love for us(:

Metaphor for life

I find it hard at times to not question why God does what he does. I wonder every day why everything happens, what those reasons are, and so on. I keep thinking if I'm doing the right thing, or what I did wrong in the past. Because I really really don't want to repeat the same mistakes. And so far, I think I'm doing alright with that. Sometimes I forget to just stop and pray and remember God's in control. Cause sometimes I tend to think I'm in control and I'm not. I just have to remember that sometimes we can't do anything but let the current take us away. We just gotta be careful not to get stuck under it and drown. I think I'm still trying to find the inbetween of that. Trying to go with the current without drowning under it. But God controls the current so I guess I'm in good hands. Well for now, as you can see. I'm still thinking lots.

~Natalie

Something to Say

I have something to say. Still don't know what that is really but I do. Sometimes God puts us through struggles and hurts just to show us how strong we are and make us even stronger. I've gotten so much stronger I would have to say. This past year, past month, this week, today. Even if more unthinkable keeps on coming my way, God still is giving me hope, the best friends ever, and his light to shine like a lighthouse that I can see no matter where I am. I thank him every day for giving me direction that I desparatly need. Well I guess that's all I can say for now. Still gotta stay strong and keep living fearless, I have to be fearless or else I wouldn't survive through all that has happend. God is great. Friends are a blessing. And everything happens for a reason...
Love Always,
Natalie Joy <3

So I go back and forth thinking what I should say. Maybe few words are better. I want to say something, just not sure what that is. Praying today can be a great day.

enough thoughts for a month of lost time...

So I haven't blogged in over a month and so much has changed it's crazy. I've been thinking this whole time. Probably thinking too much, but I think God found a way to put some thoughts into my brain besides my own. I think it's good that I had a break because I'm coming back now fresh. I've seen that God can work miracles and change people, including me in whole new ways. He can make things wash away, or heal, or build back up. When even the unthinkable happens and everything I've known is put to the test, God still came through. March was probably the worst month I've ever had but also the month where God brightened up my path and kept showing me the way. I didn't believe it all then but now looking back on it, I'm glad it was the way it was. It gave me a chance to change, to grow, to learn, to forgive, to build up friendships and become closer to people, and to see what God's plan has been for me. I don't have any regrets with how everything has changed. And I don't have any regrets with the month of March, cause guess what? February was pretty good and now its APRIL. SPRING, a new beginning. A huge God sighting I had was the last week of March, when life was beginning to settle down, I begged God to send some rain and wash away all that had happened. And 2 days later, it began to rain. It just came pouring down and I went out and danced in it. That was the turning point I believe.
When I thought it was all over, it was only beginning. The tragedy that happened March 29 really made me think about lots of things. Somehow it brought new friendship. Somehow, death brought life. Somehow out of everything bad that happened in March, something good came out of it all. I'm closer to people I never imagined to be friends with. Yes, everything and I do mean, EVERYTHING, has changed in the past month, but I'd do it all over again (and differently) in a heart beat. Still thinking about it all. I don't think I will be able to do the forgetting part no matter how much I forgive. In the end, God's plan for me is just beginning to unfold, through life and friends and everything in between.